Soliloquy

This is an endeavour from my side to write something about myself. Well I am really bad in this, as whenever I have asked myself about me ,I find myself solving a riddle. To be frank I often think about the disparate sides of my personality. On one hand someone can find me as a benign and magnanimous person on the other one might find a egoist. Few have even complained that I am a egotist. Well i don't quiet believe in solipsism and If someone has found me so then I must say that ,that's a wrong impression that he/she has got. Sorry for that. But in this confabulation with myself, I confess that I have always found myself confused. That may sound awkward to some of my friends who takes me as a confident, versatile young chap. Hey! wait a minute I am not lionising. That's true I swear. An introvert?, extrovert? or an ambivert? If I have to choose among these three, then I would opt for the last one. But sometimes I do feel that I am too much introvert and sometimes diffident too. I am a big dreamer. I dream of everything that I wish to achieve or get in my life. I find myself struggling in a world bounded by rules , as I like to make my own. My ambitions mean a lot to me, but that doesn't stops me from loving my near and dear ones. I often fall in love, and dream of holding her hand , walking by the sea-shore. But that has always been a dream so far.
Oh come on, I am tired. I am leaving this grail quest here. In short there is only one word that I liked about myself said by a close friend of mine ......................"I am idiosyncratic".